Ugh…. 

Yeeeeeah so….

I got like 40/1 hour until bed time…

I had a good day for once today. I send my email with my profile shots for real touch yesturday and I’m excited to hear back. I feel like this is where it will all start. This is where my fame with begin. I want to be known for having beauty. I don’t have anything else, no smarts, no individulality, no unique talents, just a pussy and an ass that all primitive needs can be met by looking at. I’m visually appealing at the right angles… but I don’t have much else going for me for a future which is fine to me. 

I hope my burns heal soon though, and I also hope that David get’s his license sooner than at the end of the month. He told me earlier today that that’s what the neighbor’s told him when they’d take him. THAT IS WAY TOO LATE. I want it NOW. I want him to drive us out of the god foresaken state and into the Mass. I want to go take a few days to unwind in a hotel with birth control and have sex for once. Our relashionship is at a strain living in this house for a full year and leaving it like once a week. It’s terriable to know we’d be perfect if we didn’t live here.

As for my weight… I’m restricting once again. I restricted back for the last 3 days. 4 more to go until I’ll be at a semi-okay weight and then to go for the long haul I’ll probably have to take a free for all day and then restrict to even less. I don’t want to be fat anymore ick ick ick XP